i did get to work today...but this evening i have had a bit of time to reflect on this memorial day...in the past i thought it was strictly for our armed forces that have passed on..those that have protected their country in some form....i do not know if that is true or not....but today....i am remembering all my loved ones...those that are still walking on this earth and those that are not....i am blessed with so many wonderful people. thank you all for being part of my life...my life is richer because of the people that surround me...their love, thoughts, inspirations, experiences and patience.
i have been trying to figure out whether to contact my cameron....it is now working up to six weeks since he left. what i know is when the answer comes on what i need to do....i cannot 'not' do it. what became clear to me is this...NO ONE should ever feel like their mother does not love them....NO ONE...i wanted to make sure that cameron knows that i deeply love him....mad at him? perhaps...but i love him....anyway...i texted him...with no expectations....i told him i was holding him in my heart today and i loved him deeply...and to my surprise...he texted back....love you too mom...thanks....wow...break through? i think not....but atleast he knows in his heart that his mother loves him....quite a memorial day!